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     I'm just sad. I don't really know who I am. I think all I "am" is just the being I enjoy being the most. Though I don't even know if that's the real me. Sometimes I don't even want to be that person. Most of the time, I don't want to be anything. A lot of the time, I just want nothing to happen in this world. I don't want anything to exist but I can't let go all that I love. I am greedy mostly. Cynical definitely. I would truly like to be nice but I can't help but come to the nasty realization I just want to be nothing and careless. Wasteful. Like the rest of the population in this world. I really don't enjoy being part of this world mos

"Good Night, Sam"    Sam's father flicks the light switch in his room and darkness floods the room. His father kisses him lightly on his forehead and tucks him in before going to bed himself.    Now alone, Sam lays there in silence, with only the ticking of his clock to accompany him. Tick Tock Tick Tock. The rhythmic, almost hypnotic ticking of the clock, slowly lull him to a slumber. Then, a small whisper breaks him from the trance. Now, he is awake and alert. He can hear the faint sound of breathing right outside his door.    "D...Dad?..." He calls out. The breathing stops. After a long pause

How do I feel? Currently, I'm not sure. I don't even know if I want to care. I can't really say I'm sad. There is nothing bothering me. Nobodies pushing me. Life is fair. Yet, my pain is indeed emotional. I could say I'm lonely, but that's not necessarily so. Do I feel worthless? Perhaps. But I prove myself capable of many things. And people acknowledge it. Or so they say they do. I must say, it's dull not being free to be myself. I am bored. Yeah. That's it. I want to act. Live life as a dream fulfilled. I have the energy and ready to take on life head on. But I can't. It seems I'm held back by chains. Oh that's right. Silly me. They'll neve

I still believe in you. I believe in your smile. Even as I sit in the mess I made, forever hurting. I'm there for you. I am your traitor Your faithful traitor. My heart keeps twisting. Constricting my lungs. I feel so breathless. I know I can never take back my mistake. I'm stuck in my endless self redemption. It's been forever since the day. The day I let you down. You were my only one. I was young then but that's no excuse. I am to blame, fit for damnation. You linger still within me. My heart still feels you. You say it's okay now. This guilt has no escape. I am your traitor. Your faithful traitor. I had a dream last night we were hold